THERE IS A SEASON: CHRISTMAS DAY BY DARCY
& KALIMYRE
Slash:
Story portraying the strong friendship between Jack
O'Neill and Daniel Jackson
Rating:
G
Category:
AU, missing scene from "There Is a Season"
Season/Spoilers:
None
Synopsis:
Jack and Daniel celebrate their first Christmas
together.
Warnings:
Kid fic, smooshy, yadda yadda
Length:
31 Kb
Notes:
The response to "There Is a Season" was both humbling
and overwhelming. We'd like to dedicate this missing scene to everyone
who waded through over 400 pages of the original fic and sent such
incredible, encouraging feedback. It is truly inspiring.
"Wait for
me,
kiddo." Jack left everything in the truck and hurried around to the
passenger side door to help Daniel out.
"I'm
okay,"
Daniel huffed, waving him off, his actions belying his words as one
shaky hand
clutched his chest.
Jack
unlocked the front
door and held it open rather than waste time arguing with Daniel’s
insistence
on always being fine. He took a quick glance inside to make sure
everything was
in the order they'd left it. Nothing had changed. They'd barely been
gone three
days.
"Bed,"
Jack
ordered as soon as Daniel was inside the door.
For once,
Daniel was in
full agreement as he sleepwalked down the hall. Jack turned him around
to steer
him towards the bathroom for a quick pit stop before continuing on to
his room
to flop down on his bed.
"Hold on,
let's get
you situated. Up." When Daniel obediently stood up and raised his hands
Jack quickly pulled off his sweater, then his turtleneck, and with
practiced
efficiency slipped on his favorite sweatshirt.
"I can do
it,
Jack," Daniel sighed.
Despite
the token
protest, Daniel stood still and muffled a yawn as Jack quickly removed
his
jeans and settled him into his pajama bottoms before pulling down the
blanket
and sheet.
"All
right, all set,
dive in." Jack checked his watch, 2:00 pm. Daniel had taken a nebulizer
treatment and his meds on the plane and should be good for at least a
few more
hours.
Daniel
wasted no time
complying, burrowing under the sheets, folding his hands under his head
and
pulling his knees clear up to his chin. If not for the raspy, wheezy
sucking
sounds rattling around in his chest, Jack would have described the pose
as
peacefully serene.
Closing
his eyes for a
few blissful moments, Jack collapsed in the chair he kept in Daniel's
room for
days like this one when he needed to keep a close watch on Daniel's
breathing.
When he was positive the boy was sound asleep he ruffled the blonde
tuft of
hair sticking out from under the covers and planted a gentle kiss
before
hurrying downstairs to get busy. He had a lot of work to do before the
kid woke
up, hopefully before midnight so it would still be Christmas Day but
regardless, Jack had already determined Daniel would be celebrating
Christmas
no matter what the clock or the calendar read.
First,
Jack went out to
the truck and brought in the luggage. He took the time to unpack and
separate
the dirty clothes from the clean. Next, he delivered the still folded
clean
clothes to their appropriate rooms, taking the opportunity to check in
on
Daniel, who was sleeping heavily.
Shit,
Rose! The thought
struck him as he was tucking the blanket around Daniel's foot. He had
better
call her before she called him or there'd be hell to pay.
He
quietly went back
downstairs and dialed his mom.
"Hello?"
"Hey,
Mom, it's
me." He paused to gauge her reaction now that she had time to think
about
what had transpired between them.
"How's
Daniel?"
She sounded fine. Worried, but fine.
"He's
already in bed
napping. I think he'll be okay. Look, ma, I'm sorry..."
"No,
don't,
Jackie," she interrupted.
A lump
instantly formed
in his throat. She hadn't called him that since he was five.
"It's my
fault for
meddling where I don't belong. You have your own life to live and
you're doing
just fine. You and Daniel both."
"It's
okay," he
assured her. "Do you have somewhere to go for Christmas?" He guiltily
realized she probably hadn't made any plans thinking she'd be spending
the day
and the week with him and Danny.
"Yes,
honey. Don’t
worry about me. Mabel next door invited me over for Christmas dinner.
I'll be
fine. You take care of that little boy, Jack. He's special."
"I know,
ma. I
will," he promised.
"Make
sure to give
Daniel his present from me."
"I will."
"And be
sure to
indulge him with some of those cookies I made special for him."
"Yep."
"Merry
Christmas,
Jack," she said cheerfully. "And there's a present for you too; I
shoved it in your suitcase before you left."
"Okay,
you didn't
have to," he sighed.
"Love
you,
honey."
"I love
you too,
ma." He hung up the phone and wondered why they could talk so easily on
the phone, hundreds of miles apart, but always seemed to argue when
face to
face.
He didn't
have time to
waste worrying about it. After removing the Christmas stockings and all
the
small gifts he had wrapped and packed away to give Daniel in Minnesota, he
made his way down to the
basement and dug around for the sled he had hidden there. It looked
undisturbed
so he figured Daniel hadn't discovered it. He was glad it would be a
surprise,
especially since Daniel had found sledding so enjoyable. He frowned at
the
crappy, ugly, little artificial tree stored down there from last year.
Sam and
Teal'c had given it to him but he’d never had the heart to set it up.
Had he
known they'd be home he would have taken Daniel out to cut down a
proper tree
but now that experience would have to wait until next year. This little
wannabe
Christmas tree would have to do; it was all he had.
It only
took a few
minutes to set up the tree and throw on the few ornaments he'd found.
Jack took
a step back to scrutinize his handiwork and wished he had some stray
tinsel
lying about. At least the thing had those fiber optic lights that he
would
normally hate, but in this case, were better than nothing. Then he ran
upstairs
to check on Daniel and sat down in the chair, taking a breather to
watch him
sleep. Despite Daniel's chest sounding like an old train whistle, he
appeared
calm and restful. Jack closed his eyes, amazed at how just a few days
ago he'd
been pacing the hospital floor on the verge of tearing his hair out.
Asthma
definitely took some getting used to but watching the small,
beleaguered chest
rise and fall, Jack knew he wouldn't trade the wheezy kid lying on the
bed for
anyone or anything in the world.
Downstairs,
sitting in
his favorite leather chair, Jack waited impatiently for Daniel to make
an
appearance. He had woken the exhausted boy up a few hours earlier to
ply him
with medicine but Daniel had fallen right back to sleep. It was going
on 8:00
pm. The stockings were hung by the chimney with care, the tree was as
good as
it was going to get, and the presents looked a bit worse for wear from
having
been jammed into his luggage, but all in all, not bad for an impromptu
Christmas.
Aware he
was probably on
the brink of being labeled a sentimental old fool, Jack made no attempt
to
quell his unexpected enthusiasm. He couldn't help it; he wanted Daniel
to share
in all the excitement of the holidays that he remembered from his own
childhood.
Jack had
loved Christmas
as a husband and father, too, but this Christmas was different enough
to start
new traditions. Charlie had been Christmas savvy after the age of seven
or so,
and although it had been a blast to shop for hockey sticks and ice
skates and
BMX bikes and computer games, this Christmas with Daniel was different
enough
to deaden some of the inevitable, painful memories. This Christmas was
all
about the little things...
Silly
Putty, a Slinky, an
Etch-A-Sketch, a Superball, and the big, honkin' box of crayons with
the sharpener
in the back... Jack had been determined to get Daniel all the favorites
before
the kid was too old to appreciate them. It had taken all of his
willpower to
resist Mr. Potato Head. The spud was far too babyish for a ten year old
but it
had been one of Jack's early favorites. Charlie's too... at four years
old. So
Jack had reluctantly put it back on the shelf and opted for the
Monopoly game
and the Tinker Toys instead. He sighed, wishing Daniel was young enough
for
Legos and Lincoln Logs and Playdough but knew their time had long
passed. Even
the Tinker Toys were pushing the envelope, but what the hell, Jack
loved the
classics.
He was so
lost in thought
the kid snuck up on him.
"Jack?
What
happened?" Daniel blinked and rubbed his eyes in confused excitement.
"I think someone brought you presents!"
"You
better get your
glasses checked, kiddo. I think someone brought YOU presents." Jack
picked
up a small package and pretended to examine it closely. "Someone by the
name of Santa Claus from the looks of it."
"Jaaack,"
Daniel drawled. "There's no such person as Santa Claus. The name Santa
Claus is an anglicized form of the Dutch, Sinterklass. After the
English took
over New Amsterdam..."
"Ack!"
Jack
raised a finger. "Don't ruin this for me, okay?"
"Kay,"
Daniel
agreed with a blush. He looked around in what seemed to be fuzzy
disbelief, his
jaw dropping at what Jack had considered a fairly small pile of gifts.
Apparently, Daniel thought otherwise. He smiled at the crackling fire,
gravitating toward it automatically, and then, "We have stockings,
Jack!" The surprised, wide eyed, goofy, confused look, complete with
raised eyebrows was reward enough for Jack's efforts and Daniel had yet
to open
a gift.
"Take it
down and
see what old St. Nick brought ya." Jack helped take the stocking down
off
the hook for Daniel's perusal.
"Chocolates,
Jack!
My favorites!"
"How
about that.
That St. Nick knows his stuff, huh?"
Daniel
smiled
indulgently. "What did you get, Jack?"
"Let's
see
here." Jack made a show of emptying out his stocking. "Peanuts, gummy
fish and... well, looky here, that new aero dynamic pen I've been
wanting to
try out. What else you got?"
"I don't
know.
What's this?" Daniel's excitement level rose as he pulled out an odd
shaped instrument.
"That, my
friend, is
a kazoo."
Daniel
frowned. "I
don't know how to play a kazoo, Jack."
"No one
knows how to
play a kazoo, Danny. It's just to make noise. Go ahead. Try it."
"Oh." A
big
smile lit up the small face as Daniel blew into the kazoo for all he
was worth
which wasn't much given the current state of his chest. Still, the
kazoo gave a
shrill whistle while Daniel coughed a bit from the effort. "Wow, it
does
make a lot of noise, doesn't it, Jack?"
'"Yep.
You better
save it for when you're feeling better. Go ahead and open up some of
the gifts
or we'll be here all night."
The sight
of the small
tree, and modest number of gifts beneath it caused Daniel's face to
shine
brighter than the fiber optics. He shyly picked up the smallest package
in the
pile and took his time, carefully pulling open the wrapping paper to
reveal a
blue and red plastic egg. He slowly opened the egg and removed the
putty with a
puzzled look. "What do you do with it Jack? Hang pictures?"
"Hang
pictures?
Heck, no, you don't hang pictures with it. It's Silly Putty. Grab that
newspaper there and I'll show you what you can do with it." When Daniel
handed him the paper Jack flattened out the putty and pressed it to the
newsprint to transfer the words. "Pretty cool, huh?"
"Why do
you need to
transfer the words?" Daniel wrinkled his nose and tilted his head in
confusion.
"No
reason. Just for
fun," Jack patiently explained. "Wait til you try it out on the
comics."
"Try
another
one," Jack ordered enthusiastically. "And not so slow. Just dig in
and rip it right open."
Taking
Jack's advice,
Daniel tore open the next package with more abandon and less care. He
ripped
off the cardboard and removed the jiggling, floppy spirals and held it
up for
Jack's inspection with a perplexed frown. "What is it, Jack?"
"It's a
slinky." Jack took the toy from a baffled Daniel and proceeded to move
the
slinky from hand to hand to produce the desired effect. "See," Jack
said proudly.
"What's
it
for?" Daniel asked, pushing his glasses up his nose in confusion.
"It
doesn't have a
purpose, it's a Slinky. Just try it." Jack handed it over and chuckled
as
Daniel tried to get the rhythm of the silly toy.
"I'm
doing it! Look,
Jack, it's working!"
"You're a
natural," Jack encouraged. "Watch this, it can even go down the
stairs." Jack took the Slinky, and sure enough, to Daniel's delight,
the
thing went down three or four stairs before collapsing. "Pretty cool,
huh?"
Daniel
nodded
enthusiastically before moving on to the other gifts.
"Here's
one from...
grandma!"
The box
was rectangular
in shape and not very heavy. Jack had no idea what was in it. "I have
one
from Rose too, we might as well open them together. I'll race you. One,
two
three, go!"
The rare
sound of
Daniel's laughter warmed Jack to his toes until the chuckling turned
into light
coughing then wheezing. Jack slowed down his unwrapping to let Daniel
catch his
breath and catch up.
"It's an,
an
airplane." Daniel held up the box while Jack finished unwrapping.
"Yours is an airplane too, Jack!"
An F-15C
Eagle USAF to be
exact. Building models was a hobby Jack had loved as a boy and
continued
enjoying into adulthood. Working on models was one of his favorite
memories of
time spent with his dad and he had carried on the tradition with
Charlie. Another
pleasure he had given it up after his son's death. It hurt too much.
Damned
Rose.
"Can you
teach me
how to make the plane, Jack?" Daniel asked hopefully.
"Sure,"
Jack
breathed out, wondering if he'd ever have the heart.
"’Kay,"
Daniel
sighed happily. "I'll call Rose and thank her."
"Tomorrow,
Danny.
We'll call her tomorrow. Speaking of Rose, how about we break into the
cookies
she made for you."
Daniel
nodded eagerly and
retrieved the tin of special cookies Rose had baked just for him. He
opened the
tin and handed one to Jack, munching on one himself. They both chewed
blissfully.
"Do you
like them,
Jack?"
"Oh,
yeah. Peanut
butter with chocolate chips... good call."
"Do you
like them as
much as the oatmeal raisin?" Daniel flashed a bright, eager,
irresistible
smile.
"I do. I
think I'm
going to have two favorites from now on."
They
nibbled at cookies
in between the rest of the presents, and Jack plied Daniel with milk,
mixing in
a little Hershey’s. It wasn’t exactly a healthy meal, but he figured if
a kid
couldn’t have cookies and chocolate milk for dinner on Christmas, then
when
could he?
“Jack,
Jack! This one is
from Sam and Teal’c, see?” Daniel was holding up a golden-wrapped
present,
waving it.
“I see
it, buddy,” Jack
said, grinning. “I got one from them, too.” Carter had gotten him an
adapter
for his telescope that added another, far stronger level of
magnification, and
a CD with coordinates, description, and a how-to-find manual for every
planet
they had a gate address for that was visible from Earth. Her card had
said this
way, he could always keep an eye on them, wherever they were. Teal’c
had gotten
him an exquisite fishing pole, the exact thing he had mentioned wanting
during
their single, unfortunate fishing trip together. Jack was absurdly
touched that
Teal’c had remembered.
Daniel
frowned at the
box, turning it side to side and listening to the faint rustle from
within. He
peered at the shiny red label with his name on it. “Jack?”
“Hmm?”
Jack was playing
with the Tinker Toys, and something vaguely boat-shaped was emerging.
“I think
this is a
mistake.”
Jack
looked up, startled.
“What? What are you talking about?”
“Sam and
Teal’c are your
friends,” Daniel said. “This is probably for you. Why would they get
something
for me?”
Jack
opened his mouth,
then bit back his first, frustrated response. “Daniel. Sit by me a
minute,
okay?”
Daniel
sat obediently,
snagging another cookie from the box on the table. Jack slipped an arm
around
his shoulders and gathered him in, pleased at the easy way Daniel
leaned on
him. “They’re your friends too,” he said. “I’m sure they wanted to give
you
that gift.”
Daniel
tilted his head to
one side, considering. “Because you’re their boss? Does that mean they
have
to?”
“No,”
Jack sighed. “You
talked to them at Thanksgiving, didn’t you? Remember how Teal’c told
you all
those stories about Egyptian stuff?”
Daniel
nodded eagerly,
grinning. “Yeah, that was great! He’s amazingly well versed in the
ancient
Egyptian gods and the hierarchy of rule. Also, he knew so much about
the language!
His pronunciation was a little weird, though; but I didn’t say
anything. He
seemed so sure.” Daniel gave him a conspirator’s smile. “I thought it
would be
mean to say he got it wrong.”
“Hmm,”
Jack said, trying
not to laugh. “How kind of you. But see, you two hit it off. He liked
you,
Daniel, and Teal’c doesn’t like just anybody. Man’s got standards.”
“Really?
I thought he was
just being polite.”
Jack
tried to fit
“Teal’c” and “polite” into the same space in his head. It didn’t go
well. “No,”
he said, “that wasn’t it. And Carter liked you too, you know.”
Daniel
shrugged. “She
likes everyone. She’s just really nice.”
“Not
always,” Jack
countered. “I’ve seen her when she gets mad, Danny, and let me tell
you, it’s
not pretty. She’s scarier than Teal’c when she wants to be.”
Daniel
gave him a very
dubious look, but nodded agreeably. “Okay. But I didn’t understand most
of her
math stuff.”
“Nobody
does. That’s
okay, she’s used to it. The important part is that you listened, and
didn’t
fall asleep after five minutes.”
“Ja-ack,”
Daniel groaned,
rolling his eyes. “Nobody actually falls asleep, do they? That would be
rude.”
Jack
shrugged and didn’t
answer. It had only been the one time, and to be fair, the General had
looked
pretty dazed, too. Carter had been very understanding. Sort of. She’d
told
Fraiser, who would probably make sly references to his energy and
stamina until
the end of time, but she’d taken no further revenge. Jack thought
telling
Fraiser was plenty, anyway.
“My point
is they like
you. Believe it or not, you happen to be a very likeable kid.” Jack
poked
Daniel in the belly for emphasis, making him curl and grin.
“Well...
okay,” Daniel
said, but his reluctance was fleeting, and he pounced on the beribboned
package
with all the glee of any kid in the world. Once he had the wrapping
off, he
bounced on his heels and held up the box. “It’s the pyramids at Giza! Look, it’s
3-D and
you can build it up and it even has texture like the stones and look,
look, there’s
two boxes, Jack! The Sphinx too! Can we build them?”
“Sure,”
Jack said,
chuckling. “Sure we can. First thing in the morning, okay?” Because he
knew
Daniel would be reluctant to stop once he got started, and it was
getting late
for a certain recovering little boy.
“Okay,”
Daniel said
cheerfully, setting the boxes aside in a clear space. “Hey, look! I got
a
present from Doctor Fraiser, too!” He tilted the package, listening
suspiciously. “It’s not more medicine, is it?”
Jack
smiled and shook his
head. “No, I’m pretty sure it isn’t. Why don’t you unwrap it and find
out?”
Daniel
nodded and fell to
it without further protest, tossing the shreds of wrapping paper onto
the
growing pile. “Oh, wow,” he murmured in tones of clear awe when he saw
what was
inside.
“Something
good?” Jack
asked, peering over his shoulder. Daniel was holding a large, hardcover
book to
his chest, thumbs running over the worn binding. He took a deep, if
somewhat
wheezy breath, inhaling the scent of the old paper. Jack shook his
head. Daniel
had to be the only kid he knew who got excited about receiving an old
book for
Christmas.
“It’s Les
Miserables, in
the original French,” Daniel said. He opened the cover, turning the
pages
carefully, fingering the edges. “Not a first edition—well, of course
not, that
would cost thousands, but still. It’s in excellent condition for its
age.”
“Do you
read French?”
Daniel
gave him a look
that suggested he’d just said something silly. “Of course. It’s an
important
language, Jack. Doctor Fraiser was teaching me some great Cajun dialect
at my
last check-up. She’s very fluent, you know.”
“Of
course,” Jack echoed.
He’d known no such thing, but it was interesting. Cajun? So the Doc was
from Louisiana,
or
thereabouts. He’d always wondered where she got her faint southern
drawl.
Daniel
set the book
carefully on top of the puzzles, running his fingers down the cover
again,
stroking the soft leather. The book was soon joined by a homemade solar
calendar from Dudley, all cardboard
and
construction paper and meticulously drawn out little notations. Daniel
handled
it with the same reverence he’d shown the undoubtedly expensive book.
There was
a box of fine chocolates from General Hammond (and an equally fine
bottle of
scotch for Jack), and, half-hidden in shreds of wrapping paper, one
small box
from Cassie.
“Huh,”
Daniel said,
sounding a bit surprised as he lifted one corner of the wrapping.
“Whatcha
got?”
Daniel
had an odd,
bemused smile on his face as he uncovered his gift from Cassie—a box of
tissues. His smile got wider, and he shook his head a little, reading
her words
scrawled on the side: So you don’t have to borrow mine.
Jack
frowned, confused.
“What does that mean?”
“It’s...”
Daniel
shrugged, and then laughed softly, spreading his hands. “It’s hard to
explain.”
“Huh. Had
to be there, I
guess.” Jack was still puzzled, but Daniel seemed happy with the gift,
so he
let it go.
“Yeah.”
Daniel was still
smiling as he set the box of tissues with his other treasures. “Okay,”
he said,
dusting his hands together briskly. “That has to be all of them, right?
There’s
so many.”
“Well,”
Jack began slyly,
“I think there might be one more.”
“Really?”
Daniel looked
around eagerly. “Where?”
“It’s
down in the
basement. Aht!” Jack added, holding up a hand when Daniel immediately
turned
toward the stairs. “Let me get it.”
“I’ll go
with you,”
Daniel said, bouncing on his toes again. His color was high, his eyes
bright,
but his breathing was still rough and Jack was pretty sure the seeming
vigor
was a result of too much sugar. The stairs were steep and the basement
cold and
clammy, not to mention full of dust.
“Wait
here,” Jack said
firmly.
Daniel
looked ready to
protest, but he sighed and conceded, sinking back into the couch and
picking up
the puzzles again. He didn’t open them, just looked at the pictures of Giza on the
front and
grinned, tracing the edges with his fingertips.
Jack dug
the sled out and
hauled it up the stairs, sneezing at the dust raised by displaced junk.
He
sighed in relief as his bare, and now freezing feet touched the warm
carpet
again. He stood with the sled propped against his hip and waited for
Daniel to
shake his enchantment with the pictures and notice him.
“Oh,”
Daniel said softly
when he looked up. “That’s for later, isn’t it?”
Jack
nodded, patting the
sleek wood. “As soon as you’re feeling better. I know a great hill
nearby that
you’re gonna love.”
“Okay.
Thank you, Jack!”
Daniel gave him a wide smile before succumbing to a yawn. He rubbed his
eyes
and picked up another cookie, considering it for a moment before
wrinkling his
nose and putting it back down. “I think I’ve had enough cookies,” he
announced.
“Perish
the thought,”
Jack replied, but he closed the cookie box anyway, grabbing one last
small one
for himself. Those peanut butter and chocolate chip ones really were
good.
“Maybe we
could do the
Sphinx puzzle tonight?” Daniel asked, eyeing it hopefully. “It’s not
that big,
and I’m really not tired.”
“Uh-huh.”
Jack tried not
to sound openly skeptical, but it was hard when Daniel couldn’t seem to
go five
minutes without yawning. "Not tonight. It's getting a little late for
that."
"Okay,"
Daniel
agreed, picking up his new Superball with intent.
"Don't
even think
about bouncing that ball in the house," Jack said in an effort to cut
off
any ideas.
Daniel
looked up,
confused.
"What?"
Jack
asked. "Superballs are very hard and... bouncy, it might break
something.
That's why it's called super."
"Why
would you give
a kid a bouncy ball in the winter and tell him not to bounce it?"
Daniel
asked logically. "There's no place to try it out."
"One
bounce,"
Jack relented. The kid had an excellent point.
Daniel
threw the
rubberized ball down on the hardwood floor and watched in startled awe
as it
shot around the living room, narrowly missing lamps and pictures.
"Wow,
Jack!"
"Yeah,
wow,"
Jack laughed. "Does that answer your question about why we shouldn't
bounce it in the house?"
Daniel
nodded, eyes
sparkling.
"Hey, I
found this
in your suitcase." Jack held up the clumsily wrapped gift with "JACK"
scrawled in Daniel's writing on the paper. "Is it for me?"
Daniel
blushed and bowed
his head.
"What's
the
matter?"
"C'mere,"
Jack
said when Daniel didn't answer. Daniel wasted no time plopping down on
the
couch beside him.
"What's
all this
about?" Jack asked as he absently ran his hand threw the blond hair.
"You got
me all
these presents, Jack, and I only got you one dumb thing."
"Well,
it's obvious
you don't know very much about Christmas, Danny," Jack said gently,
still
combing his fingers through the already mussed hair.
Daniel
looked up
expectantly.
"If you
did, you'd
know that Christmas is for kids. So, you see, you didn't need to get me
anything at all. With this one gift, you're actually ahead of the game.
And,
I’m sure it's not dumb."
"Really,
Jack?"
"Yes,
really. Have I
ever steered ya wrong?"
"Nope,"
Daniel
replied, perking up considerably.
"So, do I
get to
open my one, totally unnecessary, unexpected gift?"
Daniel
nodded vigorously
while Jack opened with gusto.
The torn
paper revealed a
navy blue coffee mug covered with stars and a half moon. "Nice!" Jack
said appreciatively.
"It's not
exactly
like the one I broke but I couldn't find one like that but this one is
sort of
like it except it's a mug. It's for coffee, Jack. You like coffee, and
look, it
has stars on it." Daniel talked very fast gesturing as he spoke.
"The one
you
broke..." Jack thought hard about what Daniel had broken recently.
"Remember,
Jack?
When I first came to live with you. I promised I wouldn't break
anything but I
did." He paused, slowing down to catch his breath and get a grip on the
wheezing that was setting in. "By accident," he finally added.
"Oh,
Danny, did
anyone ever tell you that you worry too much?"
"Just
you."
Daniel scrunched his eyes and shrugged. "Do you like it, Jack?"
"Of
course, I like
it." Jack pulled the little body closer and kissed Daniel's forehead.
"You didn’t have to though. I forgot all about that silly glass."
Daniel
smiled and then
tried to yawn but it turned into another coughing jag that set Jack in
motion.
"Thank
you, Daniel.
I'll use this mug for tomorrow morning's coffee. And that's enough
Christmas
for tonight, buddy. Time to get you to bed."
Nodding
sleepily, Daniel
headed for the bathroom while Jack grabbed the prescribed asthma
medications
and set up the nebulizer. When Daniel came back, he climbed into bed
and sat up
against the headboard and put the mask over of his face to breathe in
the mist.
When the treatment ended he did sound slightly better.
Jack set
a glass of water
within Daniel's reach. "Good night, buddy. Merry Christmas." He
tucked Daniel in and kissed his cheek.
"Jack?”
The hoarse
voice rasped out before Jack had a chance to turn out the light. "We
opened all the presents, maybe we should have saved some. What will we
do
tomorrow?"
"Tomorrow
we play
with all of them, silly. Actually..." Jack leaned in to whisper, "no
one knows we're home. We can play with the toys and games all day long
and no
one will bug us."
"Just me
and
you!" Daniel agreed happily. "We can start my puzzle. And play
Monopoly and I can practice my Slinky!" He paused to take a deep,
theatrical breath. “And I think my breathing is much better already. I
bet we
can go sledding, too.”
“Hmm,”
Jack said. “We’ll
see.”
“That
means no,” Daniel
sighed.
“No, it
means we’ll see.”
Jack offered an apologetic smile. “But you’re probably right. It’s
gonna be
snowy out there for a long time, buddy. I promise we’ll go sledding
before the
snow melts, okay?”
“Okay,”
Daniel agreed
reluctantly. “Can we go outside just for a couple minutes, to see Dudley’s solar calendar work?”
“Well...”
“Please?”
“Okay,”
Jack conceded.
“Just for a couple minutes. And only if the sun is out.”
“Yes!”
Daniel considered
for a moment. “Can we have cookies for breakfast, too?”
“No, but
you can have one
with breakfast, how’s that?”
“Okay,”
Daniel agreed
sleepily. His eyes slipped shut, then opened again as another idea
struck. “Can
you show me how that fishing pole works?”
Jack
raised his eyebrows,
surprised. “You like fishing?”
“Sure.
Lots of people
live on fishing, you know. In Egypt...”
Daniel interrupted himself with another yawn.
“Hold
that thought, and
tell me tomorrow,” Jack said.
Daniel
nodded and curled
deeper into the covers. “I want to do the puzzle first, though,” he
murmured.
"Yep,
whatever you
want, just me and you, kiddo." This time Jack did switch off the
bedside
lamp.
"Jack,"
Daniel
whispered. "It's the best Christmas ever. I'm always going to remember
it.
Forever," he mumbled sleepily. "Even when I'm big."
"They'll
be lots of
Christmases, Danny," Jack promised firmly.
"Even if
there's
not, I'll always have this one to remember," Daniel said quietly.
"Goodnight, Jack."
Unsure of
what to say to
that, Jack decided on a simple, "Goodnight, Danny."
Jack went
downstairs and
cleaned up the cookie crumbs and errant wrapping paper and then stacked
Daniel's new toys and games under the shabby tree. When the house was
to his
liking, he grabbed a beer and sat down on the sofa to ponder the
changes in his
life. It was the first Christmas since his son's death he had
celebrated sober.
After Charlie died he had vowed never again to acknowledge any
holidays, much
less enjoy them. That first Christmas he worked for five straight days,
ignoring Christmas as if it didn't exist, and to his shame, leaving
Sarah to
fend for herself. The next year he drank himself into oblivion.
This was
the first
Christmas he wasn't working and he wasn't drinking, incredibly, he was
having
fun with Daniel Jackson.
Jack
wiped away a few
unexpected tears on his sleeve as he thought of Charlie and of how life
moves
on whether you want it to or not.
It was
better not to
dwell.
He set
the beer aside and
went upstairs to sit at Daniel's bedside and take comfort in the rusty
breathing of an orphaned ten year old.
FINIS
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