Jack had time to think curiosity killed before
his brain exploded, his heart slammed out of his throat and he
wheezed what felt like his last breath. He should haul ass out of
here, he absolutely should, but dead men don't walk.
Of course, being dead was only the start of his problems. He was
also all kinds of horrified.
His eyes were pinned to a narrow, slanting gap in crisp white
Venetian blinds at a familiar window. Even if he was alive, he
couldn't have moved. He couldn't tear himself from the inconceivable
sight of powerful muscles flexing in a rhythmically pumping ass. A
hard, sculpted, supermodel of an ass.
Jack didn't know the ass but he knew the hands urging it harder,
faster. He knew the long legs lifting to wrap tight around a strong,
labouring back. He knew the flushed, gorgeous face of the man
beneath, the arching throat and straining shoulders.
Daniel was having sex. He was having hot, passionate, magnificent
sex with a man who was very obviously in to him, a man Jack didn't
know at all, and he was loving every pounding, screaming second.
"That should be me," Jack moaned, dying again.
"O'Neill?" Teal'c enquired cautiously. "Are you
He was probably fooled into thinking this by the way Jack was
slumped face down and motionless on his dining table.
"Nah. Just dead."
The silence of the Jaffa suggested someone's sense of irony needed
"Don't worry," Jack mumbled vague reassurance into the table. "I'm
getting the hang of it now."
"Where may I procure alcohol for you?" Teal'c asked grimly.
"Kinsey drank me out of the good stuff and I finished the crap
already." Jack rolled an empty bottle in the direction all the noise
was coming from.
"I see your conversation with DanielJackson did not go well." A
chair scraped back and creaked under a body with about the same
granite mass as Pike's Peak.
"Didn't go at all."
"Were you not able to discuss with DanielJackson the possibility of
your professional advancement and relocation to Washington in order
to once again take the place of General Hammond?"
"You know, you're even more pompous and pedantic than Daniel is,"
Jack complained pettishly.
"Did you not see DanielJackson?"
"Oh, I saw him." Even Jack could hear the hysteria bubbling. He
sounded like he could cry him a river. "I got a real eyeful, if you
catch my drift."
"I do not."
"Being dead won't stop me kicking your ass," Jack threatened, coming
back from the dead long enough to flip Teal'c the bird.
"On the contrary," Teal'c argued politely. "It might improve your
"Daniel," Jack enunciated with icy, incredulous precision, "was not
alone. He was with someone."
"I believe that is the accepted definition of not alone."
"With someone!" Jack hollered at his table. "As in,
"I believe we have established that DanielJackson was not alone."
"Daniel Jackson was not alone in the biblical sense," Jack said
"He was in the presence of God?"
Jack's head snapped up. "He was having sex!"
Teal'c's poker face didn't flicker, the enigmatic bastard. "Then he
was in the presence of Allan Lanfear," he divulged with Buddha-like
"Whaa?" Jack bleated as his table pitched, rolled and tried to
finish off what little was left of his stinking corpse.
"Dr. Allan Lanfear," Teal'c explained obligingly. "He is a visiting
instructor at the United States Air Force Academy."
"I believe it is through your offices that DanielJackson met Dr.
Lanfear," Teal'c said thoughtfully.
"I have a gun." The thought of doing violence was very comforting.
"At this point, I'm willing to use it on either one of us."
"DanielJackson was consigned to the expert tutelage of Dr. Lanfear
in order to improve his tactical effectiveness and survival skills
in marine combat situations."
This almost made a hideous kind of sense. The last fizzing neurons
of Jack's ballistic brain fired over a sea of paperwork. "He's the
swim coach?" he hazarded, reviving as he formulated the threat.
"This guy Lanfear? He's Daniel's swim coach?"
Teal'c smiled benignly.
"Walter," Jack whispered hoarsely, selecting his first target. "I'm
going to kill Walter."
Jack was prostrate on his couch, beyond help or
Not that Teal'c was offering. It was becoming increasingly apparent
he thought Jack's emotional wounds were not only self-inflicted, but
he was richly deserving of everything he got.
"You know this guy!" Jack accused, in some scary, seething state of
mind beyond outrage. "I tell you Daniel is having sex, you tell me
the sonovabitch's name."
"I supervised a number of the early training sessions conducted by
Dr. Lanfear," Teal'c said placidly. "I was pleased to approve his
training methods and to observe for myself how quickly he was able
to gain DanielJackson's trust."
"And I'm guessing you didn't have a problem with him using that
trust to get in Daniel's Speedos," Jack said sarcastically.
"DanielJackson has confided in me his great liking for Dr. Lanfear,"
Teal'c replied repressively, not getting drawn into the much more
important issue of who had access to Daniel's Speedos.
"Just because Daniel likes someone, that doesn't mean you let him
sleep with them," Jack objected angrily. "Daniel likes practically
everyone. For reasons that escape me at present, he even likes you."
"Dr. Lanfear likes me also," Teal'c informed Jack with some
satisfaction. "He was in fact grateful for the concern I expressed
over DanielJackson's wellbeing."
"You went to kill him, right?" Jack noted with grudging professional
interest. "Right after Daniel got done with confiding the whole
"Dr. Lanfear believed so," Teal'c admitted smugly.
"Why'd you let him live?" Jack sighed. "It just makes more work for
"He was able to convince me of the honesty of his intentions towards
Thinking about that supermodel ass in full pumpin' action, Jack
could only gape at Teal'c's definition of honest.
"He wished to show DanielJackson a good time," Teal'c elaborated.
"I may be forced to kill you right after I kill the competition,"
Jack snarled, goaded beyond endurance.
Teal'c just looked at him.
"I didn't mean that the way it sounded," Jack muttered
uncomfortably, avoiding his eyes.
"Then what did you mean?"
"Oh, you know what I mean," Jack said impatiently. "I'm having the
same reaction you had when you heard Daniel was gettin' jiggy with
it. The only difference is I intend to follow through."
"It is not your concern, O'Neill."
"It's Daniel!" Jack sat up to glare at him, furious his homey
didn't have his back while some lecher was getting every inch of
"And are you not planning to leave him behind when you accept your
promotion to head of Homeworld Security?"
"No! Yes!" Jack didn't know. He hadn't exactly thought it through.
Except – okay. Okay. He'd figured Daniel would think the Smithsonian
was really cool. He cranked up the glare in Teal'c's direction. "Oh,
leave me alone," he said sullenly.
Teal'c stood up, his expression stony. "You must speak with
DanielJackson," he ordered implacably.
The pleasant voice right by his ear made Jack jump a mile, banging
his knee painfully off the steering wheel. He swung around in his
seat to find a chiselled, perspiring hunk in very short shorts and
running shoes resting against the side of his truck, eyeing his
"You must be Jack," the hunk said with amused certainty as Jack got
out of the truck and loomed menacingly at him. "I'm Allan, in case
you don't have the house wired for sound yet." Allan squinted along
the street towards Daniel's pristine front yard. "Good spot for
stalking," he approved. "Daniel said you were a pro."
Since the pro in question just got caught by a move that would've
embarrassed him in junior high checking out chicks, he wasn't going
near that assessment.
"You've got your work cut out for you, Jack," Allan informed him
critically. "You're going to need my help."
"Excuse me?" That sound they both heard was Jack's jaw hitting the
"With Daniel." Allan loped around the front of the truck and bounded
in the passenger side.
"I'm armed, you know," Jack confided chattily, more than willing to
show as well as tell.
"And you're dangerous either way," Allan commented knowledgeably.
"Better looking than I imagined too. The hair...that silver fox
thing really works for you." His smile was a dazzling Colgate
commercial. "I'm gay, you know."
Having seen him in action sliding all over Daniel, Jack barely
suppressed a shudder. "That's not in question."
"Must be the only thing that isn't. You're buried so deep in the
closet you can't even see the light of day."
"I'm not gay!"
"Then how come you're in love with Daniel?" Allan fastened his
seatbelt and looked expectant. "You going to buy me coffee or what?
I prefer to kick your ass verbally but I'm willing to take it out
into the street."
"A minute ago you were helping me."
"I plan to. I have to believe you're not the consummate asshole you
appear to be or Daniel wouldn't think the world of you the way he
"I wouldn’t worry about it. He's used to disappointment."
"Why are you helping me?"
"Because I don't want Daniel fucking off to god knows where looking
for the lost city of Atlantis," Allan said flatly.
"He told you that?" Jack demanded, wondering if the world was ever
going to firm up under his feet again.
"Give us both some credit," Allan replied coldly. "Daniel doesn't
talk and I don't ask. He reads, though. He reads obsessively.
Lately, he likes to read curled up on the couch with me. I see what
he reads and I have a PhD in being a jock."
Jack climbed back into the truck and started it.
Allan smiled and patted Jack's thigh interestedly. "Don't sweat it,"
he advised. "Teal'c liked me too."
"I don't like you," Jack sniffed. "I just haven't killed you yet."
"Take me to Panera Bread," Allan instructed. "Daniel likes those
cinnamon things." He glanced across at Jack's hands, clenched on the
steering wheel. "You hate when I talk about him," he observed with
satisfaction. "You hate that I know him as much as you hate me
sleeping with him."
Jack ground his teeth and fumed for a couple of miles.
"I'm not so sure he knows you at all," Allan said slowly, watching
Jack drive. "He's heard some stuff about you from someone he trusts
and cares for. Someone he believed."
"Inside." Allan nodded towards the near empty parking lot of Panera
Bread and kept Jack seething until they were tucked away in a corner
with steaming coffee and French toast bagels. "I mentioned liking
guys, right? For me, the happy ending is guy gets guy."
"I'll be more than happy to get you if you don't spit it out," Jack
"Just trying to establish my credentials." Allan shrugged
carelessly. "I'm not into girls. I don't hate them, but they don't
do anything for me."
"So help me!"
"I don't like that Froot Loop Samantha Carter. I think she's bad
"Colonel National Treasure herself. Isn't that what you call her?"
"I..." Jack had called her that one time. He couldn't remember when
or why, only that he had.
"Don't get me wrong, Jack. I don't think the woman is evil. I just
think she's a self-centred, arrogant bitch who believes with all her
heart she's the good guy. She also believes you dumped your
girlfriend to promise undying love to her."
"My...girlfriend." There was another tectonic shift under Jack's
"The hot chick from the CIA."
"You know a helluva lot for a swim coach," Jack said evenly.
"I had lunch with her," Allan explained guilelessly as he dug into
his bagel. "With her and Daniel. She seemed almost as interested in
him as he was in her. She was real discreet but she didn't need to
say a whole helluva lot, you know? It's obvious to everyone but
Daniel – and Carter – you have issues, General."
"One big one in particular." Jack recalled the petty detail of
getting dumped with painful clarity.
"If you're going to use some chick as a beard, try to let her know
that going in, okay?" Allan advised disapprovingly.
"That's not what happened."
"Next you'll be telling me you didn't promise you'd always be there
for Sammie Dearest."
"I didn't. At least, I did, but I didn't mean it like that." Her
father was dying!
"You meant as a friend," Allan agreed understandingly. "A friend she
has to respect, obey and call sir."
"I think what Carter heard was more like love, honour and obey."
Allan smiled unpleasantly at Jack's pain. "You really screwed the
pooch on that one. It didn’t occur to you at any time to just pony
up and deal with her delusions?"
"Why am I listening to you?"
"Because I have Daniel and you want him," Allan replied fluently.
"And because you know I'm the only one who can help you get him
Being dead would've come in handy right about now, because Jack sure
as hell wasn't ready to hear this laid out for him so bluntly.
"Carter's not so bad as you make out," he said, and didn't know why.
"Maybe not, Jack. Maybe not. But because I'm not the one who's been
signing off on her performance evaluations and promoting her ass for
the past eight years, because I only care about Daniel, I have the
luxury of being biased. And I think she only sees the world in how
it affects her." Allan looked curiously at Jack. "Are you really so
blind you can't see that when you fart, Carter hears violins?"
A muffled snort made them look up. Stifling giggles, a youthful
employee tremulously wiped down a nearby table. "I love that!" she
admitted with a broad, delighted grin as she piled trash on a tray
and headed on to her next table. "That's the best description of a
bunny boiler I ever heard."
Jack put his head in his hands.
"I think it was right around the time Daniel heard about the
girlfriend and the undying love thing that he finally got the
message, gave up on you and went to bed with me," Allan relentlessly
twisted the knife. "Personally, I have to thank you for that."
"Does he know about the job offer?"
"The exciting move to D.C.?"
"The future Mrs. General O'Neill filled him in. That's why she's
shipping out with Cassandra to some top secret testing facility in
the desert, out of your chain of command. Probably picking out china
patterns right now."
"I wish I was dead."
"Piss off that big guy Teal'c any more than you have, and your
prayers will likely be answered. He lays the blame square at your
door for Daniel wanting to run off and lick his wounds some place
out back of beyond."
"I'm not too bright, am I?" Jack said slowly.
"Is that a rhetorical question?"
"You keep telling me what's really going on here, I keep letting it
"Oh, you mean the Daniel being madly in love with you and totally
committed to you until you finally broke his heart thing?"
"Who are you?" Jack asked incredulously. "And just what is Daniel to
"I'm Daniel's friend. I look out for him. All you need to know about
me is that I'm the guy who showed him how to have a good time. And I
mean that literally. Fun used to just be a word he could spell."
"Not hard enough," Allan retorted, unmoved. "Now you tell me
something, General." This didn't sound like an invitation. "What's
it going to take to get you out of that closet you're buried alive
Jack had a gun. He was planning to take Walter,
Carter and Teal'c with him. Daniel got to live just because and
Lanfear – well, he was still undecided about Allan Lanfear. Apart
from the fact his pecs were so pumped and perfect that bullets would
probably bounce right off, Jack could see for himself how good he
was with Daniel.
Currently, Jack was hiding out in plain sight in a seat poolside,
watching Allan put his hands on Daniel Jackson in a way Jack had
never dared to for all manner of complicated reasons. He saw a good
teacher; he saw Daniel trusted the guy.
It annoyed him intensely to admit it, but he was pretty sure he did
This was all as Lanfear had said. No hearts and flowers, no lifelong
commitment or red-hot romance. Just two guys looking amazing in
Speedos who'd become friends and had taken that friendship into bed
and the Speedos off without regrets or expectations.
Lanfear wasn't permanent staff at the Academy. Daniel had known that
going in. Nothing more had been demanded of him than he let down his
walls a little and have a good time.
Jack could have taken Daniel to bed any time these past years.
Anything he'd had to say, Daniel would've listened. Now Daniel had
not only given up on the idea of Jack doing anything for him, he was
leaving him, heading out to another galaxy impossibly out of Jack's
There was no one to blame for this but Jack. He'd cut all the ties,
not Daniel. He couldn't even argue Daniel was wrong to have hopes of
him, because he'd gone out of his way to be the man Daniel turned
to, he'd worked for that hard-won trust and admiration, for
affection. He'd wanted Daniel to love him because of all the good it
Of course, he never really thought where all that love might lead
Daniel or how deep you could hurt a difficult man who trusted you.
He'd led Daniel on as much as he'd led Carter on. Probably the only
difference between the two of them was Daniel was used to
disappointment. Eventually, Jack kicked him enough times he stayed
down while Carter was as sure she'd get Jack as she'd got every
other thing she wanted in life. The world was at her feet and Jack
O'Neill helped put it there.
So here he was. Bottom of the ninth and Daniel was pitching for the
other team. Jack had no choice but to come up swinging.
When Jack walked into Daniel's office, he found
him sorting through books. It wasn't hard to figure out he was
planning what to take. Daedalus was preparing for her return trip to
the Pegasus Galaxy and Daniel couldn't stand to be left behind
again, not for a fourth time. Packing was his statement of intent:
he might not make Atlantis this trip, but he would make it.
"Jack," Daniel acknowledged with a pleasant, distracted smile.
"Packing for Atlantis?" Jack enquired equally pleasantly, coming
over to lean against the lab bench.
"Here to talk me out of it?" Daniel picked up the books he'd
discarded and turned around to put them back on the shelves.
"Here to tell you I'm thinking of coming along," Jack announced with
impressive casualness. Hey, he wasn't here to make the Jaffa happy.
He had his own nuts in the vice.
Daniel needed to sit down. Hard. The chair was just a fortuitous
coincidence. He sat with his arms full of books, gaping feebly up at
Jack. Every now and again his lips would start to move, but nothing
Guiltily, Jack got him a glass of water and took his books from him.
When he'd stuffed them neatly in the gap on the shelf, he dusted off
his hands and hovered in what he hoped came off as a supportive
fashion. As opposed to shitting himself, which was actually the
"Whaa?" Daniel bleated eventually.
Jack patted him gently on the shoulder. He felt about the same way.
"It's where you belong," he pointed out in a low, embarrassed tone.
"God knows you've worked for it. So, maybe you should have it.
"I should?" Daniel blinked, shook all over like a damp dog and tried
to pull himself together. "What happened to over your dead body?"
This would no doubt be arranged as soon as Teal'c heard the glad
tidings of Jack's joy.
"I'm more worried about your dead body," he said cheerily. "That's
why I'm shipping out with you. Someone has to keep an eye on you."
"But Dr. Weir is in charge of the Atlantis project," Daniel
objected, staunchly hanging on to his defensiveness. "It's a
civilian scientific mission and she's the one who made it happen."
"Not any more," Jack contradicted brutally. "Everything changed when
we learned about the enemies they've made us out there. Weir isn't
equipped to fight a war. If she was, we wouldn't have the Wraith
knocking on Atlantis' door."
"You're planning to take command?"
"It's where all the action is. And you know me," Jack added
jokingly. "Always looking to get some action."
Daniel looked at him very oddly.
Jack cleared his throat and decided everyone would be safer if he
went around to the other side of the lab bench.
Daniel visibly braced himself for the other shoe to drop.
Jack hurried on. "What more is there for me to do here? We've taken
out the Goa'uld, Anubis, the super soldiers and the
Replicators. Now the Asgard have a chance to rebuild and pay back
some of what they owe us by mopping up the last few no-name, low on
the totem snakes."
"There's no one left to fight."
"Except you," Jack joked.
Daniel closed his eyes and tilted his head, trying to think about
all of this. It was possible Jack was scaring him.
"Come on, Daniel," Jack urged. "Who's better suited to Atlantis than
us? You keep telling me no one knows more about the Ancients than
you do and no one has more experience with making their technology
work than I do."
"Major Sheppard might disagree with that."
"Major Sheppard can bite me," Jack said dismissively. "I never
intended for him to wind up in command out there. His days of
hot-dogging it through the gate are numbered either way. If I don't
take on Atlantis and the Wraith, then Steven Caldwell and Daedalus
"I, er, you'll have to excuse me if I'm a little stunned by all of
this, Jack," Daniel opened his eyes and stared searchingly at Jack.
"What about Sam? And Teal'c?"
"Carter is transferring to Area 51 to head up R&D," Jack replied
promptly. "She's looking to spend a little quality time with
Cassandra. And the big guy belongs on Dakara leading the Jaffa
council with Bra'tac. He's got a peace to win."
"So...there's nothing keeping you here?" Daniel asked haltingly,
forgetting everything he knew about body language as he stuffed his
clenched fists under his armpits and tried to act casual. "Is that
what you're telling me?"
Jack summoned up what he hoped was a nice, charming smile that
wouldn't scare Daniel even more. "Pretty much."
"The promotion, the move to Washington?" Daniel asked in a manner
suggesting the answer couldn't possibly matter to him. "That
was never a real consideration?"
"I missed the chair Hammond stole from me," Jack brushed it off
Daniel's defensive face softened into a shy, answering smile.
"We're headed out to the Pegasus Galaxy with Caldwell tomorrow,"
Jack advised Daniel, grinning as this hit made it clean out of the
park. "This time you won't have to watch Daedalus take off without
you. Promise." He smiled as Daniel's face lit up. He might not have
a supermodel ass, but he had himself a huge, honkin' spaceship
headed out for a home run. "Better say your goodbyes."
Jack didn't want what he was doing to be mistaken for altruism by
anyone but Daniel, who was fairly pleased with him right now. Major,
major brownie points were being earned where the archaeologist of
the species was concerned.
The Jaffa, the national treasure and the swim coach were on their
own. Carter and Lanfear had both boned Daniel in their own uniquely
individual ways and as for Teal'c, it was a case of Jack being cruel
to be kind. Teal'c wanted to lead the free Jaffa nation but he also
wanted to snap his fingers and have Jack, Daniel and a tame SGC come
The replacement Jack had in mind would do many things for Earth's
Jaffa allies, but running wasn't one of them. Hank Landry preferred
to shoot to score.
"He's leaving?" Sam demanded, reeling in angry
astonishment. "I need to talk to him," she declared, jumping up from
"He went home to pack up his Simpsons DVDs," Daniel said quietly. "I
think he's planning to talk to you and Teal'c about it tomorrow."
"Tomorrow?" She shook her head. "I don't believe this. I thought
we'd have more time before he left for Washington. Talk through how
it's going to work for us, how we take things forward from here."
"Um, Sam," Daniel awkwardly interrupted her fretting. "Maybe I
wasn't being very clear."
Mentally out of the door already, she tossed him an impatient,
"Jack isn't leaving for Washington." This was terribly difficult to
say when he knew the hopes she'd had of Jack, of building a future
together. He didn't know what else to do, or who else would talk to
her if he didn't. So he steeled himself and went on. "He's leaving
on the Daedalus with me. He's taking command of Atlantis."
"Atlantis?" Sam whispered, clutching the edge of her lab bench for
"He thinks that's where he's needed."
"He's needed here."
"I'm sorry," Daniel said gently.
"I don’t understand," Sam argued rapidly. "Teal'c was sure, he was
certain the general wouldn't let you leave. Now you're
telling me he's going with you?"
"I – not exactly with me," Daniel denied, trying not to let
Sam's incomprehension get to him. It didn't seem to have crossed her
mind that Jack might care about him. "I'm one of the reasons he's
going, sure, but not the only reason. Not the - the whole reason."
"That's what he told you?" Sam asked in quite another tone, an
arrested expression on her face. "That he was going for your sake?"
"I'm not the whole reason," Daniel said again, meeting her sharp
Sam took a deep breath. "Then I'm going too. You're going to need
"Dr. McKay is already assigned to the mission, Sam," Daniel said
miserably, wondering how much longer he could dance around the
truth, that Jack was expecting Sam to go to Area 51 and seemed
perfectly fine about it. "And you're, er, you're not an expert in
"If I didn't know better, I'd think you were trying to talk me out
of it, Daniel," Sam said in surprise.
"You know better. Or you should," Daniel snapped, losing some of his
patience. "You're supposed to be taking command at Area 51 because
Cassandra needs you. If you love her, how can you walk away from
He wished it unsaid as soon as he saw Sam's face change, as she made
the correlation he hadn't intended and asked herself the same
questions Daniel was grappling with.
If Jack loved Sam, how could he walk away from her?
Sam had so convinced herself Jack loved her, she was even less
prepared for this than Daniel was. She was no more capable of
accepting she was the one to be left behind than Daniel was able to
accept he wouldn't be.
When Sam sat, Daniel pulled up the stool opposite and waited with
her while she tried to make sense of it.
"Am I a fool, Daniel?" she asked at last, blinking away quick tears.
"No. I don't think you are." There were plenty of people who thought
Daniel was the fool. Sometimes, he was among them.
"We've been doing this dance for years," Sam said dreamily, staring
at Daniel's face in a way that made him acutely uncomfortable. "I've
been watching the general...and he's been watching you."
"Sam!" Daniel protested.
"It's true," she snapped. "I've seen the way he looks at you
sometimes. I've seen the way his eyes will always find you, no
matter where we are or who else is there. I've seen how he gets when
anyone – or anything – takes your attention from him. I just – I let
gender get in the way," she admitted frostily. "I saw a man I
respect and admire looking at another man and I couldn't believe it.
I didn't want to believe it."
"Would Jack be any less worthy of your respect and admiration if he
was looking?" Daniel snapped back, arguing the principle. It
was hard to feel any sort of gratification, any kind of hope about
Sam's interpretation of Jack's behaviour towards each of them when
he was so disappointed in her rigidity.
"I've been told I'm beautiful," Sam said suddenly, her gaze still
fixed on Daniel. "But the face I wear is one I paint on. With you,
what we see is what we get. You grew up on us, Daniel. The skinny
kid with allergies turned out to be a gorgeous Greek god."
"Sam, we weren't in competition," Daniel disclaimed, staggered at
her description of him. He'd never done anything to attract Jack
except be himself as hard as he could. Be his friend.
"No," Sam said thoughtfully. "I see now that we weren't."
"Jesus, Daniel, what happened to you!" Allan
exclaimed when Daniel tottered into his kitchen. "You look like you
got hit by a truck."
"Well, I feel worse."
Allan put down the saucepan and came over to give him a hug.
"This would all be so much more comforting and supportive if you'd
take your hands off my ass," Daniel commented wryly.
"We've got time before dinner," Allan coaxed with a lewdly unsubtle
roll of his hips.
"Maybe not," Daniel apologised. "I have packing to do."
Allan stepped back to hold him at arm's length. "Packing?" he asked
"That trip I was talking about?"
"Uh-huh?" Allan drawled distrustfully.
"I'm taking it sooner than expected," Daniel confessed in a rush.
"In fact, my, er, my plane leaves tomorrow."
"And, er, Jack...you remember Jack?" Daniel took a deep breath and
tried to project confidence. "Jack is coming with me."
"Damn!" Allan was genuinely taken aback for a second and then he
looked deeply admiring. "That man moves fast," he twinkled.
"Allan?" Daniel asked suspiciously.
Allan put up innocent hands and turned back to his saucepan. "To me,
Jack is just the name you moan when you come, remember?"
"Once!" Daniel argued indignantly, scowling. "One time! And you
can't claim hurt feelings now, not when you almost fell out of bed
"Okay, okay." Allan put up his spoon in surrender. "He was at the
pool today, drooling over your almost naked, dripping body."
"Drooling? Maybe slavering is more accurate."
"Jack is not..."
"Jack is," Allan interrupted firmly. "He definitely is."
"You don't even know what I was going to say."
"I can only read your Speedos, not your mind." Allan planted a swift
kiss on Daniel's cheek and handed him tomatoes to slice.
"Maybe I wouldn't have reacted the way I did if you hadn't put your
hand down them," Daniel argued hotly.
"I'm gay, you know," Allan said cheerfully. "Some guy has a hard-on
with my name on it, you can bet your ass I won't just smile and hope
it goes away."
"You chivalrously offered to take care of it for me, if I recall
correctly." Daniel shot Allan a hard look. "You just made sure you
got your hand on it first."
"You have the sexiest whimper on the face of the Earth," Allan
smiled beatifically. "Now tell me. If Jack is coming with you on
your, er, trip with you, does that mean he's finally ready to climb
out of the closet?"
"Sam certainly seems to think so," Daniel sighed.
"You have had a busy day."
Allan poured him a generous glass of medicinal red wine, let him
take a stiff drink, then drew him into his arms for a thorough
kissing. Daniel gladly relaxed into the embrace, enjoying the
uncomplicated warmth and friendship.
"I'm glad your Jack finally came through for you," Allan promised
gently. "It'll make those long, hard nights all alone in Oregon so
much warmer knowing you're gettin' some."
To his horror, Daniel blushed.
"Jack hasn't said..." he demurred hastily. "He hasn't even hinted
that's the reason he's coming with me."
"Trust me, if General Jack is blowing town and leaving Super Sam
sobbing in his dust," Allan countered dryly. "Coming with you is the
only reason he's going along."
"Everything has to be about sex for you, doesn't it?" Daniel said
"I mentioned the gay thing, right?" Allan enquired.
"Will you quit trying to live down to a stereotype you know I don't
have? You are not so one-dimensional." Daniel glared at him,
justifiably aggravated. "And please don't call Sam that stupid name.
I hate when you do that."
"But it fits her so well, honey."
"You're as bad as he is!"
"Thanks. I think." Allan chopped red salad onions thoughtfully. "If
he's almost as smart as me, does it mean I have to stop calling him
"What did I do to bring you down on my life?" Daniel mourned.
"You came when I stuck my hand down your Speedos."
Daniel looked around at the salad stuff spread neatly over the
kitchen counters and thought for a while about Speedos. "We have
time before dinner," he decided.
"We do," Allan agreed with alacrity. "Want to go work up an
appetite?" He came up behind Daniel, grinding against his ass as
they stumbled into the bedroom. "I like you like this," he grinned
as Daniel yanked the t-shirt over his head before he could get to
the buttons on Daniel's shirt.
Allan pulled Daniel down on the bed on top of him, working his hands
down under the waistband of his linen pants to take firm hold of the
"You've changed a lot, you know," Allan told him proudly. "All to
the good. You used to be tied up in so many knots about all this,
wanting sex and scared of wanting all at the same time." He ran his
tongue lasciviously over Daniel's lower lip. "I'm sorry I'm not
him," he said softly.
"I never pretended you were."
"You're too nice for me, you know that?"
"I'm trying not to take offence."
"I don't suppose we could call Jack over so he could give this a
shot?" Allan asked hopefully. "I don't have to join in or anything.
I could just watch you two going at it."
"Will you shut up? Just forget Jack and your thwarted
threesome fantasies. Please," Daniel instructed impatiently. "I
don't know if Jack is in the building, let alone the closet." He had
no idea how he was going to find out or if he should even attempt
"I 'd be happier if I knew he wasn't outside the building," Allan
grinned, snatching a weird fleeting look at the window before
rolling Daniel under him and making with the long, slow slide of
chest, belly and cock, the powerful, grating roll of his hips, the
driving, intimate friction he knew Daniel liked best. To touch the
whole of their bodies was much more satisfying to him than when they
made love with just their hands or their mouths.
"What do I have to do to get some sex around here?" Daniel
complained, grinding his hips demandingly against Allan's.
"Teal'c," Jack greeted his most visibly looming
visitor brightly. "And Carter too. The two of you. Here at my house
together. What a surprise."
"Not as big a surprise as your posting to the Pegasus Galaxy, Sir,"
Carter retorted humourlessly.
Jack stood back to wave them down into his living room. "Beer?" he
offered hospitably as his guests stood around hating him.
"I do not require refreshment," Teal'c rumbled.
"What are you doing, Sir?" Carter pleaded, her hands twisting
He bit down the facetious answer and tried not to bullshit her,
although it didn't come easy. "Something I need to."
"Something you need to? Or something Daniel needs to?" she asked
intensely, missing the interrogative look Teal'c directed at her.
"That's quite enough, Colonel Carter," Jack said warningly,
stressing her rank.
"No, Sir, I don't think so," Carter argued, squaring up to him for
once. "You promised you'd always be here for me."
"And I'll still be here for you. I'll just be in another galaxy."
"You were ready to let Daniel go," Carter persisted, looking
horribly upset. "What changed?"
Jack, who'd had plenty of time to put two and two together and make
Teal'c, looked measuringly at the big guy and invited Carter to take
it up with him. He was going to get some beers. When he came back,
at least he found the two of them sitting down. They still looked
like they wanted to go for his throat, but they were sitting.
"Isn't this nice?" he remarked, sinking down into his favourite
chair and putting his feet on the table. "I'm taking my telescope,"
he said lightly. "And my fishing gear."
"Your Simpsons DVDs?" Carter suggested, trying to smile.
"Teal'c fill you in?"
"I have not."
"See, as near as I can figure it, what happened is this." Jack
settled back with his beer impeccably balanced on a cushion. "Teal'c
didn't want me to take the job in Washington and he didn't want
Daniel going off to find himself in Atlantis."
Carter looked to Teal'c for verification and he bowed his head.
"So he sent me over to Daniel's place, thinking Daniel would talk me
out of going to Washington at the same time I wouldn't let Daniel go
haring off to the Pegasus Galaxy if I was staying put," Jack
explained pithily. "At least this is what I thought Teal'c was
thinking when he sent me over there. Now, pay close attention,
Carter, 'cause this is the clever part."
She was starting to look dazed.
"What Teal'c was really thinking was if he sent me over to
Daniel's place and I found Daniel in bed with his significant other,
I would completely freak, and no one would be going any
place, except maybe the corpse of the significant other."
"Daniel is seeing someone?" Carter, with her customary selective
hearing where Jack was concerned, was starting to think she was
seeing the light at the end of a very dark tunnel. Unfortunately for
her, it was only the train he was driving.
"Teal'c decided to crucify me for fun and sent me back to Daniel's
place," Jack added with a flourish, starting to enjoy the drama way
more than he should. "Which is where I met the significant other and
took him out for coffee."
Teal'c's poker face was suggestive of faint admiration.
"Him?" Carter's eyebrows met her hairline.
"Great guy!" Jack said expansively. "He told me a shit-load of stuff
my best friend won't."
Carter was not only lost, she was starting to lose it.
Train was coming.
"You want to know what's changed?" Jack asked her mildly, wishing it
wouldn't take putting her down this hard to make her see what had
always been going on with them. He'd kill or die for her, but man,
that was all.
"I want to know." She thought she was sure.
"I saw Daniel in bed with this guy and I thought: that should be
Carter looked away from Jack and then she got up and walked
deliberately out of his house, her face set.
"First time she actually heard what I was saying to her," Jack
sighed, knowing he should have tried harder to warn her off. He
thought that Lanfear would read this not so much as Jack ponying up
to take responsibility as starting a stampede. Then he grinned
evilly at Teal'c. "Surprised?" he purred.
"It was not my intention that either DanielJackson or you would
depart from Stargate Command, General O'Neill," Teal'c replied
"Life's a bitch that way."
"Are you certain that this is what you wish to do?"
"Daniel's happy I'm coming along. That's certain enough."
"This is your home," Teal'c suggested, looking around him.
"I used to think so," Jack said indifferently.
"Tell me, O'Neill," Teal'c urged, his dark eyes doubtful. He needed
to be convinced this was the right thing for Jack – and Daniel – to
do. "Is this one event so powerful it can truly change the course of
"Let you in on a little secret of mine." Jack made a big deal of
leaning forward and looking important until he had Teal'c's full and
focused attention. "I'm not that complicated." He winked broadly.
"The way I look at it is this: I may be giving up a pond, but I'm
gaining an ocean."
Teal'c was amazed, if ultimately unconvinced, by his maturity.
Jack jumped to his feet. "I'll miss you," he said gruffly.
Teal'c stood and reached out to grip Jack's forearm ceremoniously.
"As I will miss you, my brother," he replied formally.
"Kiss Ishta for me."
"Kiss DanielJackson for me."
"Gotta love that whacky Jaffa humour."
"You are aware that DanielJackson's relationship with Allan Lanfear
has greatly altered him?" Teal'c asked gravely.
"I like the changes," Jack promised.
"You are no longer angry with him," Teal'c realised, visibly
"I was never angry with him, big guy, not about this. I had my
wake-up call, that's all."
"If you are certain," Teal'c tried again to give Jack a graceful
"I keep telling you." Jack smiled. "I'm not that complicated."
Teal'c returned the smile.
"Now get out of here and figure out how you're going to embarrass
Daniel before I take him away from all this and show him that good
time you're so keen on him having."
Teal'c's smile widened.
"I think one time you touched his shoulder or something?" Jack
hinted pleasurably. "He almost had a heart attack."
"You're letting me down if both his feet don't leave the floor."
"Sam? Are you okay? What time is it?"
"It's late," she said quietly.
Daniel opened his door all the way and came out onto the porch when
she stayed huddled against the wall of his house.
"And no. No, I'm not okay." Sam came to him then, gathering him into
a convulsive, urgent embrace. "I lost you once," she said fiercely.
"It was one of the hardest things I've ever been through. I'm not
prepared to lose you again."
"Sam," he hushed her and she tightened her arms around his neck,
drawing him down to kiss him sweetly on the cheek.
"I love you, Daniel. One day I'll be by to visit you, I promise.
That's all I came to say."
She was already pulling away from him, trying to smile.
"That and...I'll miss you."
He caught the tips of her fingers, held on to her, and she took his
hand for a moment.
"I'm sorry," she apologised wearily. "I realised tonight for the
first time the general never saw me and I never heard him. I thought
you came between us when in reality it was me who came between you."
"Won't you come in? Talk to me?" Daniel begged, distressed for her.
"What's the point?" Sam let go of his hand. "I was right about the
three of us. It never was a competition. But I'm still your friend
and I wanted you to know that."
Daniel would have followed as she went to her car, but he was hooked
firmly around the waist.
"Wow, that was big of her." Allan was completely unimpressed.
"You just can't give her any credit, can you?" Daniel snapped, angry
with him for his insensitivity.
"Oh, come on, Daniel," Allan chided, drawing him towards the house.
"Her precious general tore her a new one tonight and she ran right
to you to cry on your shoulder about it."
"As a friend," Daniel insisted. "And she was right to do it."
"This is the last place she should have come tonight. It's not
possible for you to be your own sweet self and a gracious winner in
this situation, honey," Allan cautioned him wisely. "Not when her
fantasy man is set on screwing you and not her."
"May I remind you the last person Jack slept with was a very
"She thinks he wants to screw you too," Allan replied informatively
as he kicked the door shut behind them. "I checked."
"Can't we get back to the part where I'll miss you and, out of
respect, you'll wait at least five minutes after I'm gone before you
replace me?" Daniel begged Allan plaintively.
"So long as we don't get back to the part where you try to convince
me fish are more fun than dogs."
"What's that thing you're always saying I am? My so-called type? The
rare and coveted..."
"Hot gay nerd!" Allan crowed jubilantly, bouncing Daniel onto the
"You see a dog anyplace around here?"
Allan was struck by this. "You mean I can use your fish to get
"If clubbing them over the head and dragging them back to your cave
doesn't work, sure."
"And speaking of Minnesota Man," Allan segued unkindly. "Take my
advice, Daniel. I know you're crazy about Jack, but keep your hard
hat on around him for a while. A good long while."
"Let's get this straight, okay?" Daniel said patiently. "I'm happy
Jack is taking this trip with me. I trust him to watch my back just
like he trusts me to watch his. He's a talented soldier, Allan. No
one could look out for me better than Jack will. The other part of
this is that we're friends. We've been friends for years now."
"The two of you are close," Allan said mildly.
"We are close. I admit that." Daniel rubbed Allan's shoulders. "But
I don't believe Jack has any kind of sexual or romantic interest in
me. Not after eight, nine years of straightforward platonic
friendship." He looked seriously at Allan, asking for his belief.
"That's the reason I'm here with you. I finally had to accept that
Jack is straight. He was never going to return my feelings and I was
a fool to..."
Allan hushed him with a hard kiss. "No," he contradicted. "You're no
fool. What you are is too nice and too understanding for your own
good. You gave Jack all the rope he needed to hang himself."
Daniel kind of gasped at the ruthless directness of this.
"He's in love with you," Allan promised Daniel faithfully while he
was still reeling. "And I honestly have no idea how your confident
A-type heterosexual pal will deal with the reality of loving and
wanting sex with another man. Jack is going to make a pass at you.
It's only a question of when and how." Tenderly, he took Daniel's
face between his hands. "All I'm saying is give him time to adjust
to feeling all of this for you. Give yourself time."
"You think it means something? Jack going with me?"
"I think it means everything. I think it means for the first time
Jack truly understands he has a chance with you if he's man enough
to take it. He's taking this trip with you, and that's a huge
statement of intent right there."
"How do you know all this?" Daniel wondered.
"I know guys," Allan said deprecatingly. "It's a gay thing."
Daniel hugged him. "I'm glad I met you," he declared. "And I am
going to miss you."
"I'm going to miss all the evil, perverted things I didn't get to do
"Stop," Daniel said witheringly. "All this sentimentality - you're
"I can embarrass you more," Allan announced with relish. "I'm
planning to ask Jack if he'll sell me his truck."
"Don't hold back on my account. His house has a bigger yard than
"I can't believe this is happening!" Daniel
crowed, almost dancing with joy as Daedalus powered up her engines.
Jack cleared his throat meaningfully in Teal'c's direction. Time for
the big guy to give Daniel something to remember him by.
Daniel swung around, hardly feeling the weight of his pack, which
was bulging with the twenty or so volumes he considered essential
hand luggage. He stuck out his hand to shake Teal'c's. "Lead your
people wisely," he asked gravely. "They deserve to enjoy their
freedom, not fear it."
"I fear my brethren cannot yet comprehend that before we can build a
truly free Jaffa nation, we must first end the pursuit of personal
power. There are those who would raise themselves up as the Goa'uld
once did before they would cede that power to another."
"I don't think that's quite how democracy is intended to
work, Teal'c," Daniel smiled ruefully. "It's supposed to be about
equality and fair representation, about empowerment of all the
members of the electorate, not oppression of their..."
"Daniel!" Jack interrupted forcefully. "We're going to miss our
"You'll let us know if you need us?" Daniel hovered sentimentally
"Of that you may be certain," Teal'c assured him.
"I'm going to miss you," Daniel told Teal'c simply.
"And I, you," Teal'c replied with thrilling sincerity.
It was all so dignified, Jack wanted to yuck.
Teal'c, apparently over his snit at being left alone to rule the
newly constituted universe, came through for Jack. Big time. He
engulfed Daniel in a manly embrace that reminded Jack of nothing so
much as a bug on a windshield and lovingly assured him they were
This sent Daniel scuttling towards the ship bang on schedule.
Proudly watching his young friend accelerate, Teal'c bid a final
fond farewell to his revered leader.
"If the next words you utter are 'Jaffa, kree,' I will kill you
where you stand, O'Neill."
"Are you busy?" Daniel asked Jack, hovering
expectantly in the corridor outside his quarters. "If you're busy I
can come back."
"As a matter of fact, I can ignore these reports more easily with
you here than I can on my own," Jack said with a grin, reaching to
take Daniel's arm and draw him inside. "Grab a seat and tell me if
your quarters are bigger than my sardine can."
"Bigger?" Daniel looked around him vaguely and then planted his butt
on the edge of the only seat available, which was Jack's bunk. "You
have your own toilet," he observed crisply. "The rest of us have to
get in a very long line. Does that answer your question?"
"Cool." Cheering up, Jack sat back down behind his small, stolidly
functional desk and looked hospitable.
"I, er, I wanted..." Daniel trailed off, pulling a face.
"Wanted to ask me what the hell I'm doing here?" Jack supplied
"Pretty much," Daniel agreed in a rush of relief.
"The reasons I gave you..."
"Were obviously enough to convince the Air Force and the president
to let you take off for Atlantis."
"In a very short space of time, too," Jack admitted casually enough.
"See, that's my point." Daniel wagged a finger at Jack. "It all
looks good and it all sounds good. It's all so plausible..."
"It must stink?" Jack clarified.
"I'd like to know the real reason." Daniel's fists weren't stuffed
under his armpits this time; they were making dents in the rounded
steel edge of Jack's bunk.
"I came for you," Jack said simply.
Daniel nodded sagely. This is no way masked his incomprehension.
"I'm going to Atlantis because that's where you want to be," Jack
Daniel nodded again. He was, if anything, slightly more confused
"It's all about you."
"Me." This time Daniel actually caught himself nodding and shot Jack
a deprecating look.
"We used to be tight," Jack explained as gently as possible. "I know
lately, for all kinds of complicated reasons, we've kind of stopped
working on that whole friendship thing we have. We've...drifted." He
didn't have a clue if he was saying too much or not enough, but he
plunged on anyway, thinking Daniel should hear good things from him.
"I would look out for you; you would talk my ear off, get in my way
and annoy me. We were tight."
"That seems a long time ago," Daniel tentatively offered a hint he
knew, if not where Jack was going, at least where they'd both been.
"I'd like to be that...tight...with you again."
Honest to God, this would be easier if Jack just came right out with
it and said he loved him. Just being nice took inordinate effort.
"You want me to talk your ear off?" Daniel brightened up
mischievously. "As a matter of fact, that's not a problem," he
promised eagerly. "Did you know the Asgard Hermiod is aboard? I
can't wait to talk to him! I want to confirm he's the Hermod we know
from Norse mythology...Hermod the Brave."
"Hermod the Bitchy from what I hear," Jack interrupted as soon as he
could get a word in edgeways. "He's not exactly brimming over with
goodwill to man." Then he saw Daniel's wide, wondering eyes. "What'd
I do now?" he asked suspiciously.
"I can't believe you didn't call him Haemorrhoid," Daniel marvelled.
Yes. Well. Jack coughed shiftily and shuffled the piles of crap on
his desk in a desultory fashion. Being in love wasn't doing
anything for his limited powers of communication. "My jokes are
getting old," he grouched, to cover. "I need new material."
Daniel got up and came over to perch gingerly on the corner of the
desk, quite close. Then he put a careful hand on Jack's shoulder.
"I'm glad," he told the bulkhead stiffly.
"Dunno why." Jack relaxed, deciding he was doing okay here, making
some progress. "You never laughed at my jokes anyway."
Where he went from here was another story entirely. He was looking
forward to making things up to Daniel; he was even looking forward
to making out with him. Unfortunately, he had no workable ideas how
to get from J to D, especially when it had to be via the L-word.
Wanting sex with Daniel didn't in any way guarantee he'd get it. In
fact, the way Jack's luck was holding, it would actively work
against him. How was he even supposed to bring it up? It wasn't what
you could call a naturally occurring topic in conversation between
the two of them. In fact, looking back to the dim and distant past,
Jack's last comment to Daniel on the subject of him having sex was
'ewww!' Not that he was wrong, per se. Daniel was making
little snake babies at the time.
The way he looked at it, what he was facing here wasn't so much a
learning curve as a stiff climb up a sheer glass wall with spikes at
the top for laughs.
"Jack?" Daniel nudged him from his bemused reverie. "I should get
back. I've got a ton of work reviewing the Ancients' database Weir's
team transmitted to the SGC and less than three weeks to do it." He
was smiling a little as he said this, not making a big thing of
having to remove Jack's hand from his thigh before he could go.
After five days of solitary confinement, courtesy
of Daniel's distracted, monosyllabic grunts and omnipresent laptop,
Jack's brain farted.
He marched into Daniel's quarters looking dangerous and told him his
boyfriend was a nice guy.
Daniel was so floored, he almost shorted out his laptop.
Mission accomplished, Jack marched out again.
He made it several yards down the corridor before Daniel came
barrelling out behind him, grabbed him by the scruff of the neck,
hauled him back inside and slammed the door.
"I have arthritis, you know," Jack complained almost straight-faced
as Daniel got between him and the door.
"I knew you were up to something!" Daniel declared, vigorously
embracing Jack's opening of hostilities. "I knew he was up to
something! What did he say to you?" he demanded vengefully. "And
when did he say it?"
"I'm not here because of Allan Lanfear," Jack stated emphatically
for the record. "At least not directly. I'm here because of you.
I would never have let you in on the fact I met Lanfear if I wasn't
feeling as capable as a one-legged man in an ass-kicking contest."
Both Daniel's eyebrows shot up.
"I couldn’t think what else to do. I have no idea how I'm supposed
to come on to you," Jack complained defensively. "Not you.
Not after nine years."
"I'd hoped with more subtlety than the gay guy," Daniel sniffed,
giving away more than he'd maybe intended.
"Lanfear is direct, I'll give him that," Jack seconded feelingly,
gleefully chalking up another victory for direct action.
"You know Allan wasn't really my, er, my boyfriend, don’t you?"
Daniel asked slowly, apparently noticing, and liking, how close he
and Jack were standing. "I mean, we weren't involved in a romantic
"You weren't casual either," Jack asserted with certainty. "He
was your lover."
"We were friends." Daniel admitted readily, surprising Jack by being
"Friends with benefits?" Jack suggested understandingly.
"I guess you could put it that way."
"I got involved with a woman a while back," Jack said more
confidently, starting to see his way clear. "We were friends with
Daniel tilted his head and looked all big eyed and encouraging.
"She thought I had issues and dumped me," Jack confessed
"Allan knew I had issues and he got pissed when I wouldn't let him
sleep with you too."
Jack snorted at this. "Sonovabitch!" he growled, trying not to show
he was flattered. He came a step closer and tried to talk out some
of the serious stuff making him feel lost in space. "Was he good to
you?" Was Jack wrong to listen to Lanfear, to trust him about
"He never hit on my friends in front of me," Daniel promised
solemnly, crossing his heart. He slipped past Jack and sat down on
his bunk, hitching back to settle against the wall and hug his
knees. When he looked up at Jack, his eyes were bright and clear.
Jack sat very close by him.
"Allan was good to me and he was good for me," Daniel assured him,
smiling a little. "I never had a relationship like that before,
Jack. I never knew I was capable."
"Of having fun?" Jack grinned. "He told me."
"That was Allan's mission in life, to get me to loosen up and put
down the books. Take a few risks with myself."
"I'm glad he succeeded."
Daniel looked nonplussed, but in a good way. "You're surprising me
in all kinds of ways, Jack." He sounded pleased.
"I'm not jealous," Jack said anyway. He thought he should be clear
on this. That Daniel should be clear. "That's not what this is
"Well, if you were looking to get my attention by coming with me to
Atlantis, you've succeeded admirably. Colour me stunned."
"I was looking to do something for you, something that mattered. I
think you needed to know I'm serious about you."
Daniel tried to say something in response to this, but could only
let out a stuttering sigh. His face burned as he reached across to
put an uncertain hand on Jack's arm.
"It's okay," Jack said at once, turning to slip his arm around
Daniel's shoulders. "I never thought I'd be saying these things to
A weight was lifting for Daniel; not the easiest thing for him to
deal with or for Jack to help him. Getting good things he wanted was
a little outside his experience.
"I don't expect you can jump right out of Lanfear's bed and into
mine," Jack acknowledged openly if not exactly easily, thinking he
should get over as much of this difficult ground as he could while
Daniel was letting him off so ludicrously lightly with it all. "I
know you mean it when you tell me that you and Lanfear were just
friends, that he's not someone you have to get over. I also know how
loyal you are and I figure he meant something if you could trust him
enough to sleep with him."
"Your mature insights are scaring the crap out of me, I want you to
know that," Daniel rallied bravely.
"There were always three of us in that relationship, Jack," Daniel
confessed with an odd mix of certainty and hesitation.
Jack thought hesitation was honest.
"Allan knew my feelings for you, I think even before things got
physical between us. He couldn't comprehend me wasting away – as he
put it - locked up alone in my bookish ivory tower pining and
keeping myself pure for you."
"Me either," Jack admitted frankly. He looked around at Daniel. "I'm
slow. I had no idea I could get you, that I stood any kind of chance
with you. I could not see that possibility, I could not go there,
and I don't know why. I've been thinking about nothing else for days
now and I still don't know. The best I can come up with is that it
was some sort of defence mechanism kicking in, stopping me screwing
up both our lives instead of just my own." He smiled at the warm
play of emotion over Daniel's attentive face. "I feel I let you
"No!" Daniel argued hotly. "Don't talk crap, Jack!"
"Nice." Jack smiled and gave him a gentle nudge in the ribs.
"Allan thought you let me down too, but I never did," Daniel
explained seriously. "I didn’t blame you any more than I blamed
myself. I just thought, with the type of men we are, with what we've
been through? Whatever we felt for each other, whatever we wanted,
it just wasn't meant to be."
"I'd like to look at it that way," Jack smiled softly. "Let the
issue of blame go, I mean. I will say I don't regret being here, not
when it means you can tell me you have feelings for me. Feel free to
elaborate on that, by the way," he hinted broadly, winking. "I'd
like to stun you some more with my mature insight."
"I've been thinking over what you said to me, you know," Daniel
replied, taking Jack at his word. "About us not working so hard at
this friendship thing recently. Maybe that's true, I don't know, but
it doesn't mean the foundation of our relationship isn't as solid as
it's always been." Daniel looked down at his knees, faintly
embarrassed because he was getting all mushy and emotional. "I like
to think that we're friends despite ourselves, that we couldn't not
be friends. I sort of see us as a double-negative, only together we
make a positive."
"You've changed, you know," Jack acknowledged gratefully. "I'm glad
if it means you're not angry."
"I could say the same."
"I was only mad with myself, a little with the world. Never with
you." Jack shook his head wryly. "Not even so much with him."
"You and him, together? You kicked me upside the head. It's not
complicated, Daniel, not for me. I had to get my act together,
"When Allan made it clear he wanted a physical relationship with me,
I think my feelings were pretty close to yours," Daniel confided
mildly. "It was like my life was laid down on rails and all I could
see was what was straight ahead of me. I didn't appreciate how I was
locked down, repeating the same patterns, the same errors, until
Allan had helped me break clear, helped me open up to possibilities
I never even saw before." He exchanged a long, serious look with
Jack. "I can't regret my friendship with Allan or where it took me."
"Why should you?" Jack asked, surprised. Daniel's loyalty was a
given. He wasn't about to start questioning it now. "I only regret I
didn't get my act together sooner than this."
"Don’t worry about it, Jack," Daniel said soothingly, relaxing into
a teasing look. "I know you're only saying all this stuff to get in
"We're both being very mature about this."
"Kind of depressing, isn't it? All talk and not getting any action."
"Get out there and scare the crew," Daniel advised kindly. "You'll
"Tell me you packed your Speedos, I'll feel on top of the world."
Jack guessed getting physical with Daniel wasn't going to be a slam
dunk. Not when they were hampered by all these inconveniently
complicated feelings for one another. They were at ease in each
other's space and he took that as a positive, but he wasn't the only
one finding touch laden with all this awkwardly telegraphed extra
Fortunately, sex was the only cure for what ailed them.
"We should hang out," he decided positively. "Make out."
Daniel shrugged a shoulder. He was down with that. "Sure."
And there it was, the easiest pass of Jack's career.
"Dr. Weir was very confident she had the support
of the President and our allies for her continuing leadership of the
Atlantis project," Colonel Caldwell commented as he handed Jack and
Daniel cups of an undrinkable, muddy beverage masquerading as
"She wasn't wrong in that assessment," Jack agreed neutrally.
Caldwell sat at his desk, not choosing to hide his laser-like
assessment of Jack. "If she has as much support as she intimated, then how did she lose command to you,
Sir?" he enquired forthrightly.
"Jack has more support," Daniel interjected, shuddering over his
first sip of coffee. He was such a purist. "Much more. He's
saved the world repeatedly."
"That never gets old," Jack said happily. Sure, Weir had solid
support from the politicians in her old stomping grounds back home,
but so far as the Joint Chiefs and their alien allies were
concerned, Jack was de man. It wasn't only in poker that an ace beat
out the queen.
"You have a valid point, though," Daniel admitted a trifle
reluctantly to the curious Caldwell "I don't think Dr. Weir would
have lost leadership of the Atlantis project to anyone but Jack. His
record in defeating not only the Goa'uld but the Replicators speaks
for itself. Loudly."
"You personally don't have any problem being under military command,
Dr. Jackson?" Caldwell asked.
If Jack got his way, Daniel would be having a problem under him
later tonight. A big problem.
"I'm open," Daniel replied pleasantly.
This was what Jack was hoping, yes.
"Like I said, Jack's record speaks for itself," Daniel asserted with
serene conviction, not choosing to share that Jack's singular talent
was for being pretty much a pushover where he was concerned.
If this wasn't the case, Jack wouldn't have spent two desperate,
celibate days in his cabin being brought up to what Daniel
considered speed on the Ancients, all without so much as a peck on
the cheek or even a handshake. This was what happened when Jack
tried to be sensitive and understanding about feelings and stuff.
Daniel seemed to think Jack offering him time to work things out
meant he could take time. Consequently, the only thing Jack
got to hold was the laptop. One time.
Jack had spent most of his grudgingly forced labour thinking about
Daniel sleeping with Allan Lanfear, about what they did, how they
were together. Not in a hinky, perverted way – more of a pleasant,
speculative reverie about what Daniel liked, what Jack might do for
him when they made love. He would never admit to it, of course, but
he felt a certain sense of relief Daniel had done this before. It
was going to make some possibly slightly questionable indiscretions
from his own distant past a lot less colourful.
Daniel being a slut – well, it worked for Jack.
"General?" Caldwell's flat, pedestrian voice broke in. "Are you
Jack frowned at him.
"You seem distracted," Caldwell excused his presumption.
Fairly certain he was the cause of this, Daniel glanced modestly
down at his booted feet. "Jack hates sci-fi, Colonel," he said with
some amusement, covering for Jack. "He's always prided himself on
that. I can't begin to tell you how much it annoys him he has to
Caldwell looked as if he almost understood this. "It's because of
SG-1's accomplishments, not least in securing the Asgard as our
allies, that astonishing advances like Daedalus have been possible,
gentlemen," he credited them graciously.
"Knowing that it's largely self-inflicted doesn't help," Daniel
stated, a little impatient Caldwell was completely missing the
Jack could have told Daniel that Caldwell was nothing more or less
than a classic product of his environment. Uptight, aggressive,
ambitious but not dumb, and not a coward either. Jack understood
Caldwell and every solid, straight-arrow, by-the-book career
military officer just like him. What he didn't understand was why he
was cursed not to share their lack of imagination. It was some odd
quirk in his nature that made him buck the system, stick it to the
Man and listen when Daniel Jackson started talking.
He couldn't explain why it had to be this way for him and in the
meantime, he was blaming Daniel.
"It's late," Daniel apologised inclusively to Jack and Colonel
Caldwell, already getting to his feet.
It was 2100 hours.
"I should..." Blithely ignoring their surprise, Daniel put his cup
down on the corner of Caldwell's desk and began to sidle
purposefully towards the door. "You know."
"Good to know you have the same limitations as the rest of us, Dr.
Jackson," Caldwell replied, showing surprising signs of unbending as
Daniel abandoned ship. "You've been pushing yourself pretty hard
since you came aboard, burning the midnight oil and all. It's tough
on the crew who can't keep up, you know?"
"No." Daniel hesitated, his hand poised on the door. "Sorry," he
apologised, although he looked unsure what for. "I didn't realise
anyone was paying attention."
Caldwell smiled suddenly, his stern face relaxing. "You don't get
out much, do you?" He shook his head at Daniel, quite amused.
"You're famous, Dr. Jackson. Everyone knows who you are. And I do
mean everyone. The man who opened the Stargate, found the Asgard and
the Ancients as well as Atlantis, the man who made all of this..."
He gestured proudly around at his big, butt ugly ship. "Possible."
"Oh," Daniel responded inadequately, looking to Jack to bail him
out. Flattery unnerved him, mostly because he didn't have that high
an opinion of himself and frankly suspected anyone who did.
"Famous?" Jack queried. This was maybe, possibly overstating the
case a tad.
"So, all the times I've walked through the hallways on Daedalus and
people have looked away when I caught their eye?" Daniel queried
uncertainly, realising he was on his own. "I just want to be clear
that's not paranoia on my part, that's really happening?"
It wasn't happening to Jack.
"You'll have to forgive our curiosity, Dr. Jackson," Caldwell smiled
with surprising charm. "And speaking of curiosity, I'd like to talk
to you if I may? Some time when you're not so tired."
Daniel looked enquiring.
"I have some questions," the colonel said earnestly. "About the
Ancients and also about your ascension."
Sadly, this was more than enough to reel in Daniel. No one
took the bait more easily.
When Daniel let go of the door and started to eye the chair he'd
just vacated, Jack decided he was tired too, briskly took a
rain-check on whatever it was the colonel had dragged them here for
in the first place – he didn't recall - and hustled Daniel smartly
out the door.
"That might have been interesting," Daniel objected as he was
escorted kindly but firmly away.
"Highly unlikely," Jack countered dampeningly. "But this will
Jack looked significantly at Daniel.
Daniel looked blankly at Jack.
"This is what I get for trying to be nice," Jack sighed gustily,
steering Daniel towards his quarters down the hallway.
"Nice? Nice to who? And when?" Daniel wanted to know, looking like
butter wouldn't melt as Jack secured his cabin door safely behind
"I just want you to know you richly deserve everything you're about
to get," Jack promised faithfully, closing in on him purposefully.
That sound was the other shoe dropping.
Daniel promptly made for cover behind the desk, snorting indignantly
when Jack caught him roughly around the waist and pinned him against
it. Muscling deliciously against his firm, finely curved ass and
long legs, Jack captured Daniel's wrists and drew him back into a
strong embrace. As Jack's fingers tangled emphatically with his,
Daniel tilted back his head to rest easily against Jack's shoulder
and closed his eyes, his lips curving in a smile.
"Is it terrible to want to bend you over this desk and do you here
and now?" Jack asked in a low voice, rubbing his cheek restlessly
over Daniel's. He rocked his hips in a slow bump and grind Daniel's
ass perfectly counter-pointed.
"Overly optimistic," Daniel confirmed mildly, rubbing himself gently
all over Jack. "I take it you've decided I've had ample time to get
past any inconveniently lingering feelings of loyalty to Allan?"
"I gave you plenty of rope," Jack explained crisply, "And you're
hanging me with it."
"Your egocentrism never ceases to amaze," Daniel remarked with
"Big enough for the both of us," Jack joked distractedly, mostly
aware of the maddening friction of hip and ass and the way the blood
was sliding down. Being held this close to him, Daniel had to feel
how hard he was making Jack but he kept on rubbing, rubbing.
Impulsively, Jack freed Daniel's hands to reach down between his
legs and explore the hardness there.
"You really don't have a problem with my sleeping with Allan, do
you?" Daniel faltered on a shuddering gasp, trapping Jack's hands
delightfully between his thighs.
"Only if it keeps you from sleeping with me now," Jack answered with
complete honesty, loving the way Daniel swelled against his cupping
hand. "Look, all I know is if you could sleep with him, with a
friend, then you could sleep with me. That possibility was open. I
don't know or care about anything else. It's only about your
feelings for me and mine for you."
"I don't need to tell you how it is for us," Daniel murmured
with low-voiced certainty.
There was love between them.
"I'm absolutely clear on that," Jack promised faithfully as Daniel
turned to take his face between unsteady hands. He needed to look at
Jack a long time before he came close, let their lips touch. It felt
right and good, totally right for them. It felt easy. It seemed to
Jack he knew the taste of Daniel and the feel of him before their
arms wound tight and they opened their mouths to deepen the kiss.
They knew each other so well.
It was incredible.
An uncomplicated, gliding dance of tongues took them down onto the
narrow bed to kiss out their hearts in peace. Hot, liquid, flowing,
their mouths moved together, their restless hands all over each
other. When Jack nudged Daniel onto his back, he only wrapped a leg
over Jack's ass to hold him tighter and kiss him all the harder.
It was Daniel who stripped away Jack's enveloping jacket to pull at
his T-shirt until he bared skin, Jack who fumbled at zippers and
tugged tight folds of fabric over slim, angular hips. It took both
of them, feet and hands, to free themselves from confinement and
finally find each other, hip to hip, belly on belly, muscle and
Jack knew this. He'd seen this or something like this through a
window. He looked for Daniel's flushed, ecstatic face, looked and
He guessed he found himself in Daniel's darkening eyes and
He wanted more.
And then more.
He knew nothing but the sure, loving touch of trembling fingers, the
erotic slip of warm skin and soft tongues, the pounding of cocks and
the ache low in his belly and balls.
As he pushed inside him, he knew Daniel was his world.
He could give...anything.
Daniel gasped aloud at the first thrust, the first slide of skin
into him, grabbing hard enough at Jack's back to leave bruises when
he thrust again. Jack followed his lead, rocking artfully into
clenching muscle until he felt Daniel bear down on his cock to take
him in. With Daniel's strong hands and arching hips urging him on,
he began to bury himself with short, sharp thrusts until Daniel's
body unexpectedly gave and he slid home with a deep moan of
"Good?" he whispered, lowering himself to his elbows so he could
touch his face to Daniel's.
"Good," Daniel agreed as he reached up to brush his fingertips
delicately over Jack's lips. "And I'm quite interested in what comes
"Hopefully you!" Jack snorted.
Daniel's quick answering grin faded into a shy, emotional look. "I
can't tell you what you feel like to me," he breathed.
Jack heard him. Really heard him. And then he saw just how
different this truly was for Daniel, completely confounded at having
Jack inside him. And because Jack had no plan other than to give him
whatever he wanted and to have him hear and feel and see what he
needed, he didn't hesitate now.
He pulled a little way out of Daniel then pushed slowly back into
him, giving him all the time there was. The pace he had to find was
his own; the power of his arms and back, the roll of his hips, the
steady drive up from his knees. Smooth as silk, he made love to
Daniel, thrusting slow and deep, as gentle as it was possible for
him to be with his throbbing cock sheathed to the balls in gripping
Rocked beneath him, Daniel closed his eyes, moaning out in pleasure
he hadn't expected. Shuddering with desire, he held on to Jack's
shoulders and then dug urgent heels into his ass, needing his cock
deeper and harder, just there. Daniel was far gone, carried
along by Jack's passion for him, ecstatically riding the unhurried,
impaling slide of slick skin and heat inside him.
Jack gave it to him deeper and harder, on and on, until his heart
burst and Daniel held him with wrenching tenderness as he came. When
the worst of his tremors had passed, Jack eased himself from Daniel,
rolled with him into a close, comfortable embrace, stroking his hair
and his face.
Daniel was fascinated, even humbled, to see Jack's hands shake. It
had never happened before. He began to smile then, lingering
uncertainties melting from him as he understood making love was as
powerful an experience for Jack as it was for him. It meant as much.
"You gave up everything I thought was important to you to be with
me," Daniel suggested diffidently, rubbing the sweat from Jack's
"Got everything I need, thanks," Jack contradicted lazily, smiling
when Daniel did because he could make him purely happy.
"No TV, no sports, no beer or movies. No life as you know it,"
"No coffee, no chocolate, no books or journals or papers. No life as
you know it," Jack retorted. Theatrically, he looked around at the
grey metallic walls closing in on them. "Still here," he said
"There are compensations," Daniel suggested.
"This is the biggest one, right here," Jack said with satisfaction,
firmly taking Daniel's ass in his hands. "I may not get the Simpsons
until the new season is out on DVD, but I get you."
Daniel gave himself a bemused little shake. "You keep saying the
right things," he said plaintively. "You're making me feel like my
glass is half-full." He sounded distinctly accusing about this.
Jack beamed at him.
"Did we really need to go to these extremes?" Daniel wondered,
stroking Jack's chest encouragingly. "Leave behind everyone and
everything just to find each other?"
"Yes," Jack said baldly. "It's like you explained to me a few days
ago – both our lives seeming to be laid down on rails, taking us
further and further apart. I wasn't happy commanding the SGC but I
didn't see I had any choice in it with Hammond out of the picture. I
can't begin to tell you why I was even considering the Washington
posting. Taking on the Pentagon? In person? I must have been out of
"You didn't see another choice," Daniel said quietly.
"Precisely!" Jack agreed gratefully. "And I was getting ready to
tell you that when I saw Allan Lanfear. I was so locked in to those
mistakes and errors I was making over and over again – like you said
– I had to take my head out of my ass long enough to see
there was a place in your life for Lanfear to even imagine
there was a place for me."
"All the time," Daniel sighed, moving his face closer to Jack's.
"I know it now," Jack sighed too, sharing a gentle kiss as they
tightened their hold on each other. "This was a no-brainer, Daniel.
I swear. Took me all of two seconds to figure out what to do when I
finally saw I had a chance with you. Atlantis is your dream but
Washington – for me, that was only ever a nightmare. I never wanted
it. In fact, when I stopped and took a look at my life, all I wanted
was you. Take you from that equation, I couldn't even see the
"You do understand I want Atlantis so badly because it's the
culmination of everything I've worked for?" Daniel asked a little
anxiously. "It's the first real answer I've found to the questions
I've been asking ever since we found Ernest Littlefield and the
repository of knowledge on Heliopolis. I promise you, Jack, it was
never about getting away from you."
"I wouldn't have blamed you if it had been," Jack said frankly. "I
didn't give you much to hold on to, did I?"
"I want to forget all of those things," Daniel confided painfully,
opening himself up to some deep emotion. "I want to see this as a
beginning for us, not an ending. To be about choices we make
together, not old mistakes we try to get past. Maybe I'm selfish, or
maybe I'm just naďve, but I don't want anything to bring us down."
"Want to keep that glass half-full?" Jack quirked a smile at Daniel.
"I like the feeling," Daniel admitted diffidently. He held Jack's
gaze and went a little deeper. "I would have loved Atlantis, Jack. I
would have opened myself up to all its possibilities, let it take
me." His face stilled. "I would always have needed you to be a part
of it, to be with me, because I can't feel as much when you're not
there. Atlantis would only have been about the work – amazing,
fulfilling and only ever a part of my life, not the whole." He tried
to smile. "I wouldn't have been whole."
And what the hell could Jack say to that? "I would've got
myself a sweet deal on cable."
"I, er, I feel the pain of your martyrdom." Daniel started to relax,
to almost be glad Jack was hearing what he had to share with him.
Jack went with it. "And that comfy chair Hammond stole from me."
"It was his chair to begin with."
"I thought we weren't looking back or pointing fingers anymore?"
Jack reminded him sternly. "And can you quit it with the
interruptions? I'm trying to tell you something important here."
"There's more to life than cable?"
"Apparently so," Jack admitted bravely, graciously accepting
Daniel's supportive hug. "I guess I'll have to make do with an ocean
view, fishing and you."
"I'm in love with you," Daniel confided suddenly, very much needing
Jack smiled, pulled him in even closer than before, where he could
feel his heart, and they kissed again. "Me too."
They were ready to make these promises. There was love between them.
And because of it, there was no need to exorcise the ghost of Allan
Lanfear. There was no competition, nothing left to fear. It was
exactly as Daniel had said. Lanfear was his friend and he was good
to him, and Jack surely had cause to be grateful.
He chuckled softly, realising something about himself.
"What?" Daniel lit up responsively.
"Damned if I'm not wising up."
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